He loves me, he loves me not.... he loves me, he loves me not....

Well I have had a few messages confirming that it is actually more than just my mum reading this - thanks people :o) That was the motivation I needed...

I am going to embarrass Adam again... well, if and when he ever gets around to reading this :o)

He said it!!!!!

We were falling asleep late on Friday night and we'd been out and had a few drinks..... he was talking and I'll confess that I'm not sure exactly what he was saying right before.... something about not wanting to hurt or upset people... and then he said 'especially not the person I love' and there was a pause during which I was suddenly much more awake and holding my breath, thinking 'does he mean me, or is he about to talk about his mum or something?' and then he kissed my shoulder and whispered 'because I do, you know'.

This has made me feel rather happy :o)

We also had our first sort of fight, which was really only a discussion, in a very gorwn up kind of way and actually seemed like a healthy thing to be doing, so I'm not worried about that. I just got a slight telling off which, thinking about it afterwards, I agree I probably deserved. I guess I'm not perfect after all!! It's still all a bit new to me, this couple stuff - doing it properly anyway.

It is 4 weeks today until I leave for south america. My room is being advertised and it all feels a bit real now. I kind of don't want to go gallivanting off to another continent, with a massive heavy backpack and not knowing anyone again. I feel like I want to say 'ok, that's enough, I made my point, I went off and had my adventure and even found my 'Kiwi prince' along the way. Can I go home yet?'

But I know, it'll be amazing. The tour I'm doing includes a stay in the Amazon Jungle and visiting Machu Picchu. Not something you get to do every day!

And I can officially confirm that Adam is coming to the UK for a holiday -  we're doing Kent, London, Scotland, Barcelona and Vegas on the way home. And I will be accompanying him home for another 12 months here.

Well... you've got to just really go for things sometimes, haven't you? :o)

xxx